Below are the 11 most recent journal entries recorded in makeshiftchrist's LiveJournal:

Saturday, January 29th, 2005
11:55 pm	In correspondence to my last post, I wish to inform you of the site I am now running. The site is..... www.bwhacks.com/stigmata If you do visit, please leave a comment. (Comment on this)
Thursday, January 27th, 2005
11:39 pm	no longer will i be updating this livejounal. only to check on commmunities. i have my own site as of now, so yes, the time has come to say good-bye to this livejournal. goodnight, i will not be arising again. stigmata (Comment on this)
Wednesday, January 26th, 2005
9:36 pm	all i want is what is mine yeah, so once again, i use the nearest computer to tell you fuckers what goes on in my miniscule life. sooner or later, i'm getting three rings in my lip. yesh. people are telling me i'm stupid for doing that, but i just told them to go fuck themselves and i will put holes wherever i want to. i'm thinking about singing "circle" by slipknot for my solo. it's really good. corey's got a good voice when he's not screaming himself hoarse. so i entered the poetry contest, but i highly doubt i'm gonna win. the poem is about a falling out i just recently had. this person is now completely avoinding me, and i wonder if i'm the one that should apologize, but i don't have an idea what i did to them. friendships are far too confusing. yes they are. anyways, i have straight a's except for one stupid little math grade oh and my p.e grade which is an f. i hate my p.e teacher. she's such a stupid little whore. i slack mainly just to piss her off. i can do whatever she tells me to, but i just don't choose to. oh well. it better rain tomorrow, because i don't want to run the fucking mile. i mostly get good times on it, i just hate running the stupid thing. all during ninth hour today, i just did nothing and visited otherkin.com. that's a quite interesting site. i think i'm gonna check out the javey community ro see what lovely works have been posted in my absence... love and hate stigmata martyr Current Mood: nothing really Current Music: circle-slipknot (Comment on this)
Sunday, January 23rd, 2005
4:02 pm	yesh, i'm back. but unfortunately for me, i don't have a stable computer to use whenever i wish to. dyed my hair purple. came out quite nicely. better that i expected it to. yep, so right now, i'm at the library getting some books (not with my card though). so shit sucks right now, like it usually does. brett's yet again being a fucking drama queen. i can't stand him. he worse than me sometimes. that's pretty bad for a guy. but then again, he's gay, so that doesn't technically make him a guy in come cases. i just wish he would say it. i really don't wanna go to school tomorrow. i hate how i contradict myself in so any things. like, i don't wanna go to school, but i still wanna pass. i also hate life, but i don't wanna die just yet. anyways, i'm moving out soon. i'm also getting my lip pierced and my tongue as well, thank god. i need something other that my ears done. i have been looking back at the past years and i realized something: i have changed completely. i look nothing like my old self. i've also been having some wierd dreams. like, i am connecting with people from my past. hmm, i think that's all i'm writing for now. sweetness. Current Mood: parnoid Current Music: bauhaus- double dare (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Sunday, January 16th, 2005
3:34 pm	yeah so, i'm without a computer for a little while and it sucks teh hardcoreness. now, i'm house-sitting for my aunt cause she's up in flagstaff. i'm all a-fucking-lone! what sensible person leaves a thirteen year old kid in a two story house alone? seriously. but then again, if you know me, you know my family's not all that sensible. yep, so right now, i'm uber pissed at brett cause he's being a bastard. what's new? i'm getting really sick of typing, so i think i'll call this entry done. Current Music: the washer. (Comment on this)
Sunday, January 9th, 2005
6:43 pm	Yep, I finally decided to write a fic. Yay! It'll be Javey of course. The prologue is under the cut. ( untitled. ) (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Thursday, January 6th, 2005
7:46 pm	Concert turned out really well. Lies By Taylor Hanley Ruin the memory. Inject the poison. You bled yourself till you were dry. You spoke nothing but lies. (fallacy) Lies to feed the emptiness. You knew what would happen. You never said a word. You suffered through the abuse. (suffer more) You turned to others, but they shunned you. Now you turn to other means of comfort. But why? Selfish, insecure, two-faced liar Who can you turn to when everyone's left you in the corner? (alone) You looked so beautiful before. Broken, tattered, shattered mess. (tainted) Your cold eyes tell lies this night. Did you sacrifice who you once were to be what you are now? Because what you are now just sickens me. You can't escape this maze. All chances of escape covered by the web of lies you've spun. You've dug yourself too deep this time. Now you drag your coffin round and round. It's got you tied and fucking bound. You say you're okay? That's the furthest thing from the truth. Nothing is more ficticious. There's nothing I can do. It's your life. They're your lies. It's your deception. Of broken hearts, tattered wings, and sickening sorrow. By: Taylor Hanley Never have I felt so lost. This great tragedy that has befallen us. All that once was, can never be said. Never have I felt so dead. Our laughter is cold and mirthless. What awaits me in this place I call "home"? What lurks in this mind I call my own? You can live in your own perfect little world and never acknowledge it. In the darkest part of your soul, it lurks. You can surpress it, but it will soon fall apart. And when it does, I'll give you nothing but a mirthless laugh. The first poem is a new one. Second one is an old one. Just thought i'd post 'em. Current Music: afi-the nephilim (Comment on this)
4:17 pm	found out kiley likes brett. jeebus, he's like the new tiger of the school. it seems as if every girl likes him. fuck. kiley gave him a note today and he let me read it. it was some kind of song. so i asked him what he was going to answer her, and he said "fuck you". to me. way to be a fucking drama queen, brett. i mean, really, come on! eh, i think he might be queer anyways. that'd would be a pretty funny turnout. will and grace, anyone? after all that shit, i went and got my hair cut for the concert tonight. last night, went to brett's house, watched resident evil apocalypse, played with my afi vinyl, left at 11. got locked out of my goddamn house. had to wait until someone got home at about 2. fuck, man. woke up at six, left at seven, school, blah blah blah. after school was when the drama shit started. oh well. and it was funny. the hairdresser was cutting my hair and i told her that i wish my hair was straight. and for that she replied: we always want what we can't have. I told her, you have no idea. i thought that that was quite fitting for my situation. i oughta kick brett in the bits. bye. Current Mood: cold and pissed off Current Music: depeche mode- blasphemous rumours (Comment on this)
Friday, December 10th, 2004
10:26 pm	computers suck. my computer is broken. why can't people just leave my things alone?! it's like, i don't touch your things, why do you have permission to break my things? i don't understand the logic that runs rampant in this house. i'd really like to read more fics, but i can't. i got the new used cd. pretty good. brittny let me borrow it. i'm supposed to go to a candle craft thingy tomorrow with brett, but i'm torn between wanting to go and not wanting to go. we'll see what tomorrow brings. what new hope will the night bring? ah, we'll see. (Comment on this)
Friday, November 12th, 2004
1:31 am	Severed by Imperative Reaction you will give up you always do and time won't let you follow through your weakness has shown and now you're everthing they've thrown at you you knew the tide was coming you cast yourself adrift you burned your empty words and fucked it up again now the colours drain like blood down the canvas you abandoned and shadows hide the words you replace with excuses but excuses lose their weight when you're forced into a corner and the one you once believed in has left you there alone now what can you show for all the dreams you cripple now how does it feel when everything you had is gone now what can you say for the life you fought so hard to live now how does it feel now how does it feel how can you walk away when this was everything you wanted now how can you say this was nothing that you needed how can you fall apart at a time that is so crucial now how does it feel now how does it feel you are too lost you'll always be too caught up in your world to see reality is spoken and you turn the other way you always have a reason to deny what you destroy you burn your acid words and left it all behind now the reasons fall like cinders from the fire you avoided when whispers shun the failures you tried so hard to hide when whispers lose their trust when your lost and apathetic and the one you once believed in is a total fucking loss now what can you show for all the dreams you cripple now how does it feel when everything you had is gone now what can you say for the life you fought so hard to live now how does it feel now how does it feel how can you walk away when this was everything you wanted now how can you say this was nothing that you needed how can you fall apart at a time that is so crucial now how does it feel now how does it feel now what can you show for all the dreams you cripple now what can you show when everything you had is gone now what can you show for all the dreams you cripple now how does it feel when everything you had is gone now what can you say for the life you fought so hard to live now how does it feel now how does it feel how can you walk away when this was everything you wanted now how can you say this was nothing that you needed how can you fall apart at a time that is so crucial now how does it feel now how does it feel now what can you show okay, it took me about three months to actually find and download that song. seriously, that song makes so much fucking sense if you read the lyrics. i hope i'm not the only one that thinks that. this song has to be one of my favorites. it's just so true. the one person that i think this song really fits is brett. i don't know why, but it just does. i love this song so much. i need to find some way to get this on a cd. the whole cd redemption is fucking great. i think i'll check and see if zia has it. i hope they do, because this is one cd that i really want to buy. thank the gods that there is no school tomorrow. i fucking hate it there. the only thing i go there for is to see my friends. anyway, dyed my hair purple, but it came out more like a bluish black. fuckers. if i keep dyeing my hair, maybe it will all fall out. hehe, i can wish, can't i? fuck, i think i'm getting into my nocturnal routine again. god damn it. why can't school be at night? that would be a hell of a lot better. then i'd never really see the daylight. Current Mood: accomplished Current Music: starfuckers inc.- nine inch nails (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, November 3rd, 2004
5:58 pm	If you don't care about me, my life, what goes on in my life, my feelings or anything about me, please don't read my journal and make rude comments about me. I am sick and tired of this kind of shit. I'm very close to the edge as it is. Please don't push me any farther. <3 taylor (1 Comment |Comment on this)